Yesterday was saturday the 30th of july and it was overcast. I caught a cold
Today is the 31st and its been sunny 18 degree weather... Stuck in bed. My noise is runny, my eyes are watery and I keep sneezing orgasmically.

there's nothing like being sick to make you appreciate being healthy and avoiding the bad stuff.

Its been six months. What's happened? My bed is awesome and so is my back. My posture has improved, I've moved to altona, near the beach; work is fantastic, I told my grandparents that I am gay, which was more for the sale of my mother really. Cleared away a bunch of karmic debt for me and her. I've been going to a gym weekly. Don't meditate, but will soon. Started learning sign language.

I'm happy in a big way. Lovin life

Bed!

Kyle and I went out yesterday and I got a bed and ensemble for 1635 dollars. The bed itself was 1100 dollars. The thing the bed sits on was worth 500 dollars and they're delivering it for 35, and taking the old piece of crap away. In just two weeks i get my wish!! Oh boy I've wanted a new bed for a while. Just never got round to doing anything about it. Lazy arse! hehe

I'm also cutting dairy out of my diet. I'm drinking soy milk, no more sour cream and I've not had cheese for so long anyway. My skin is going to be healthier. I'm determined to make it happen.

I've cut down on stimulants, exercising and am

I want.

I look up at the stars and feel a longing. Like...i know them. These bodies are so heavy! It's nice that our thoughts move the parts - the hands, feet, legs etc, but yikes they're so heavy. Fleshy, meaty. Blood, guts, viscera.

I don't want to be in it anymore! It's so annoying. I'm gonna have to bring to myself the best possible thought forms i can manage. I want to shun technology. Get a decent bed that doesn't hurt my back. I want to exercise weekly if not daily. I want to meditate daily and flex my muscles daily. I want to get rid of my hayfever. I want to investigate crystal and sonic healing. I want to investigate herblore. I want to study things for myself. I want to contact AshanRey. I want to finish books and stop using the playstation 3. I don't want people to buy me stuff anymore.I have enough stuff. It keeps piling up and i don't know what to do with it all. I don't have a car, I can't take it anywhere.I want to earn more money so i can buy nicer things like clothing that fits me. I want my body to lose the fat, the stored emotion.

I've been re-reading my posts so far and I acknowledge the value in the previous posts, while adding this surety. Especially after the Mind Body Spirit Expo - In my later life i shall help others but right now, I'm focusing on myself. I'm going to take all the energy I've been allowing to list in the universe (boat wise listing) and re-direct it into myself.

I finish things that i start.


I had a reading at the Mind body spirit expo and the guy told me that i am in indigo child. I recently had a dream within a dream. An angel told me that i need to keep exercising. When i exercise i feel happier.



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I've been re-reading my posts so far and I acknowledge the value in the previous posts, while adding this surety. Especially after the Mind Body Spirit Expo - In my later life i shall help others but right now, I'm focusing on myself. I'm going to take all the energy I've been allowing to list in the universe (boat wise listing) and re-direct it into myself.

I finish things that i start.


I had a reading at the Mind body spirit expo and the guy told me that i am in indigo child. I recently had a dream within a dream. An angel told me that i need to keep exercising. When i exercise i feel happier.

http://www.freewebs.com/karynaalexandar/Angel0.jpg

"http://www.freewebs.com/karynaalexandar/Angel0.jpg"

C the C

I have decided to abstain from masturbation for one week. I may choose one photo from my porn collection to keep, as a prize at the end of the week to masturbate over, and i have to destroy all others. I'm also going to cut the crap.

Dagski

I am a bit of a dag. I'm 23, turning 24 later this year. I'm a sagittarius and I define myself as one. I am an individual, I see love everywhere, i resonate to a higher vibration, i feel the planet all around me and harnass the energy to my advantage. I take and i give in equal measures and I see the world as reality, but also the strange thing beneath reality...

I love talking with people about deep stuff. If you don't like to dnm then you'll want to move on I'd suspect...

I'm interested in exploring all aspects to life, especially the hidden esoteric things.

I like connections and the field.

Not looking for romance, but would love to email someone back and forth and get to know them and stuff.

Lately I've been noticing that life seems...dull, inane...monotonous. I'm no longer satisfied eating the food i ate, thinking the thoughts i thought, drinking the things i drank... I feel disconnected and connected to reality at once. In a different way...

I'm changing...for the better. It's gonna take some time to get used to the new me.

After work everybody rushes home and I watch them and think "I have time, It doesn't matter"

Someone does something annoying and i think "It's not important, why worry about it"

This is all good, and normal. I've just never been here before. It's so serene and calming. I mean I've always been normal but lately i feel like my heart is breakiing out of a shell...

Looking For:

Someone who wants to share with me their knowledge, their life, their being. Someone to share greatness and trouble with.

Someone who 'gets' me as i can be tactless at times. I'm afraid i suffer from foot in mouth syndrome occasionally.

My new housemate Kyle is a really cool guy, someone like him. Friends wise i mean. It's weird though, I mean, I've got everythng i want but still i search...Is this the human condition. To constantly feel as though there's something else around that corner.

It's like... Its like I'm waking up from a dream inside a dream. I think the book 'the peaceful warriro' has something to do with it. I keep thinking i have to make other people have fun and be happy to stop them thinking the world is bad. And... maybe that's not the right thing to say. I'm really confused lately. Life is ...I'm trying to... I dunno... What's ...

The New Elephant.

Current Statistics:
dex hardlove and ian foxe
Age: 23 years old
Location: Newport, Australia
Height: 178 Cm tall
Weight: 81 Kg

Current Likes:
Food. Sleeping. Dreaming. ABBA. New Age.

Current Dislikes:
Back pain. Feeling sad for no reason.

It's the homeopathy i went to. It's a delayed reaction. Am i going bonkers??? Feeling things I haven't felt since i was younger. That's It. I'm me younger again. I'm young steve, and now i have a second chance, to help myself be tge best person i can be. yeah...
hehe

So, I'm not fonna tpyu myself todnw. U'; gibba tell ysekf the ryutn!

U;n sepciual. I'm special. I'm wonderful. I'm a good person and I deserve to be myself. I don't want to change who i am for anyone else. I want to be me. I am me and me is who i am.

-------------------------------------------

I know how Muriel Heslop feels. She looks in the mirror and doesn't see the right person. In fact, she makes her own fantasy world. It's funny too, the dad is in his own fantasy land. He's bragging to his work associates about how shit his daughter is.

Why do i connect with these people. Why do i feel sad, despite having so much. How can i feel bad, when I have so much to be thankful for.